I’m 28. I have plenty of friends that have kids. I certainly could have had a child by now but I am super glad I don’t.
I have been babysitting for an 18 month old and a 3 year odl for the past 44 hours…but who’s counting. I have endured multiple meltdowns, lack of sleep (I got here on Tuesday at 4 a.m.), demanding children -“more Dora now”(umm…please?), and experienced the look of “what the hell are you still doing here?” a few times by the 18 month old.(me too buddy…me too).
The kids are over it. I’m over it.*
I know this. I am not cut out to be a single mom. I get to give these kids back after 70 some hours and I am Tired. Sore. Drained. Sleep deprived. Emotionally instable.
I’m sure they’re is some unconditional connection between mother’s and their children. That connection probably comes from them carrying their little bodies around for 9 months and then shoving them out of your own va-jay-jay (or really wanting kids and being willing to go through months and months of screening processes and paying $1000’s of dollars in adoption fees). I didn’t experience that (again, thank God) and maybe that’s why I seriously can’t deal with it when your kid screams at me for 10 minutes straight.
Maybe someday I will have kids. Maybe I won’t. All I know is that I have limited patience and value my sanity and alone time. In all seriousness I don’t know how parents do this. Especially single parents- you deserve unlimited spa treatments, a round the clock nanny service, and about 1000 karma points. Taking care of children is by far the most thankless job in the world and I am getting paid for this! Remind me to thank my mom tomorrow.
I’m looking forward to sleeping in my own bed again and I am grateful for the freed0m and flexibility in my life.
Peace and Love,
*My sister say’s I’m “over” everything right now. You’re right Cassie. I am. The only thing I’m not over is 1. moving and 2. food.