So, you’re going about your day, making healthy choices and feeling really good about how far you’ve come and how healthy you feel, then Blamo- your boss asks you to plan an office birthday party and you find yourself sitting in the middle of a room surrounded by people eating Sprinkles cupcakes and ice cream. Do you give in and indulge, or do you grab a healthy lunch of salad and fruit?
This actually happened to me this week. Not only did I have to pick up the cupcakes and ice cream, I also had to sit in a room with them for an hour and I hadn’t eaten anything but fruit that morning. Somehow I managed to not eat a single cupcake and made it to lunch an hour later and chose to eat a healthy salad with chicken and veggies. Was it easy? No. Did I survive? Yes.
Lately I have been motivated by two things. How healthy I feel and seeing individuals that are obese. I will explain both.
When I was in Orlando, I was extremely limited by the food choices around me. Usually when I travel I plan ahead and bring lots of healthy snacks that I can eat on the plane and in my hotel, but I was really tired and overwhelmed the night before I left so I didn’t go grocery shopping. My choices were limited and the second day on my trip I over indulged and ate dessert during lunch and nachos and a fish sandwich for dinner. That night and the next day I felt disgusting. I was so bloated from the fat and sodium I am no longer used to eating that I spent $4.00 for a 4 pack of pepto-bismol tablets from the hotel gift shop. That uncomfortable lesson stuck with me. I realized that food can be a source of health and wellness or a poison. I hated feeling that way and since that day have been very strict about what I choose to eat on a daily basis. Lately I have been having a latte in the morning, salad or lean cuisine at lunch, and oatmeal for dinner. Yes, it is super boring but I enjoy it and it makes me feel really good.
When I say that I am motivated by the overweight or obese, here is what I mean. I know what it is like to be overweight, and I do feel like people are not exactly the nicest to those who are heavier. For myself, I know that the extra weight I carried was a reflection of how I felt about myself, which in general showed that I hated myself and didn’t care enough about my body to fuel it properly and fit exercise into my schedule. I do not feel like this is true of everyone, but it definitely was for me. The shame and guilt I felt on the inside was reflected by the weight I carried. I know that I am never going to be a size 0 or 2 or 4, but I do know that I could be a size 18,20, or 22 and when I see people at my old weight or larger I am reminded by the choices I made then and the choices I am making now. I care too much about myself at this point to over indulge, and I care too much about myself to sit on the couch for 5 hours every night after work. I read a lot of weight loss blogs and something that always sticks out to me is how much energy people seem to have after losing weight. I won’t say that I am bouncing off the walls, but at least I feel that on most days I have a lot more energy than I did 30 pounds ago.
So for today, I am making healthy food choices and am going to the gym. If I can do this, then anyone can!
Peace and love,